Wednesday, February 02, 2005

kinda scared

Beautiful Girls (1996): another example of perfection on film. of course i'm talking about natalie portman. as i was watching the movie, i wished that i could just take out her scenes and storyline and just watch that. screw all the other crap. the movie ended all wrong. the guy should have ended up with nat or waited for her or something. it ended with the voice of reason winning the day. curse that vile voice of reason!! and uma had a great little scene with the main guy in the fishing shack but like above, she was the crappy voice of reason so i hated her for it. all the other storylines were so-so. matt dillon is horribly gay by the way. basically the movie is all natalie. she carries the movie as always. it would be worth buying if i could take her scenes, but the movie is nothing special. see it for nat or not at all. she is the greatest actress of our time.

The Cooler (2003): great movie where we get to root for the underdog and the perfect girl falls so far in love with the goofy guy. hard to watch and not compare to leaving las vegas and the girl next door. its a little hokey at times, but all in all not bad of a movie. macy and baldwin are amazing. what's her face isn't bad either. she also likes to be naked in the movie a lot. in the end, its a sweet little story with some very believable characters. it doesn't have the depth of leaving lv, but it still works. leaving lv is the way to go, but if you are in need of a rather unknown fun movie, this works too. see it.

Battle for the Planet of the Apes (1973): geez, last one finally. first fifteen minutes recapped the whole story which was a waste of my time. first off, if you haven't seen the first four, i doubt you'd be seeing this one. secondly, they all came out only one year apart, so its not like anyone has forgotten what has gone on since the last one. again, i have the complaint about how stuff has changed so quickly and its not that far into the future. a lot of the story revolves around the future and how it is destined that certain things will occur. it ends nicely by showing that the future possibly has changed and that humans and apes can co-exist. but they don't really show the future altering event that made this happen, so whether the future has changed is debatable. the entire storyline is interesting and creative, but the movies suck. don't see unless you really loved the first one, which is me, so don't see.

today is my appointment with the doc. been thinking about all the crap i can shovel to him, but i'm wondering if he is gonna think i have a problem at all. i don't even know what my problem is anymore. all the things that seemed like problems at one point are just everyday life for me. i've gotten so used to hating 80% of the world and hating myself and being so anal that i don't care anymore. its just all part of me now that i'm wondering if i even want to change. that's what i'm afraid of actually. i'm gonna get there and we're gonna discuss all my issues and figure out why i am the way i am, blah blah blah. but in the end, its really up to me and if i actually want to make these changes in my life. part of me doesn't. for instance, i'm getting older and am soon gonna have to grow up and not act like a 19 year old. but who said i don't still want to act like that? and will he even think that these issues are so major that they need changing? i don't know, just stuff i've been thinking about. guess i'll find out at 1.

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